16 Favorite Songs of 2016: #4 “Slow” – Starflyer 59

This post was originally written in February 2017:

“I keep looking for something that I think I have lost.” This line makes my eyes well up with tears when I think of it in the context of this song. That “something” that has been lost is time. I started to notice how fast time was going after I graduated high school. With every birthday I was in disbelief at where the previous twelve months had gone. I could remember snapshots, but for the most part it was work, sleep, and…well, I don’t really know.

It wasn’t until I had my first daughter almost five years ago that time seemed to kick into an even higher gear. It seems like last year she was a helpless baby, but today she’s wiping her own butt and getting ready to go to kindergarten.
Eleven days ago I had my second daughter, and it feels like it’s really only been three or four days. I’m sure that’s partly because I slept in short increments at a hospital for the first three days, but still…”My kids, they grow up fast. I want it slow. so slow.”
It’s not even so much that time needs to slow down, it’s that I need to slow down and enjoy the time I have with my little girls, but at the same time it feels like no matter how hard I try to take it all in, I still can’t hold on to my favorite moments long enough. “I keep looking for something, looking for something.”
Jason Martin here has perfectly captured the elusiveness and helpless that a dad feels watching his kids grow faster than he can control. “I keep looking for something that I think I have lost” is the cry of a man who is trying to go back a enjoy those times he had with his little ones, when they were still little. To play dolls with them. To play catch with them. To hold them in his lap while they’re still small enough. Though I know they will still pass by faster than I wish, I don’t want to take these moments and this time period for granted.
I’m very thankful for this picture from a dad who is a decade or so older than me. He provides a glimpse of how I don’t want to feel ten plus years from now, but how I know I’m gonna feel no matter how tightly I hug my little girls now.

That’s My Jam!: “Slow” – Starflyer 59

“I keep looking for something that I think I have lost.” This line makes my eyes well up with tears when I think of it in the context of this song. That “something” that has been lost is time. I started to notice how fast time was going after I graduated high school. With every birthday I was in disbelief at where the previous twelve months had gone. I could remember snapshots, but for the most part it was work, sleep, and…well, I don’t really know.

It wasn’t until I had my first daughter almost five years ago that time seemed to kick into an even higher gear. It seems like last year she was a helpless baby, but today she’s wiping her own butt and getting ready to go to kindergarten.

Eleven days ago I had my second daughter, and it feels like it’s really only been three or four days. I’m sure that’s partly because I slept in short increments at a hospital for the first three days, but still…”My kids, they grow up fast. I want it slow. so slow.”

It’s not even so much that time needs to slow down, it’s that I need to slow down and enjoy the time I have with my little girls, but at the same time it feels like no matter how hard I try to take it all in, I still can’t hold on to my favorite moments long enough. “I keep looking for something, looking for something.”

Jason Martin here has perfectly captured the elusiveness and helpless that a dad feels watching his kids grow faster than he can control. “I keep looking for something that I think I have lost” is the cry of a man who is trying to go back a enjoy those times he had with his little ones, when they were still little. To play dolls with them. To play catch with them. To hold them in his lap while they’re still small enough. Though I know they will still pass by faster than I wish, I don’t want to take these moments and this time period for granted.

I’m very thankful for this picture from a dad who is a decade or so older than me. He provides a glimpse of how I don’t want to feel ten plus years from now, but how I know I’m gonna feel no matter how tightly I hug my little girls now.

My Favorite Songs of the 90’s Part 7 (40-31)

40. “I Gotta Be” – Jagged Edge (1997)

From A Jagged Era, this song came out just as I was beginning to lose interest in R&B and dive head-first into rock music. I was always a sucker for slow jams like this one, and the music here is one of my favorites in all of the genre.

 

39. “Nobody” – Keith Sweat (1996)

This comes from Keith Sweat’s self-titled album. Similar to “I Gotta Be”, “Nobody” also has some of my favorite music in all of R&B. Honestly, it’s probably my very favorite. The reason this song doesn’t rank higher is because of the lyrics. As a married man, I’m fine with a song being about sex, as long as it doesn’t specify or insinuate that it’s about sex outside of marriage. I just think the lyrics could’ve been a little more subtle and tasteful. When you listen to this jam, focus on that atmospheric, beat-heavy music. The remix of this song is also worth seeking out.

 

38. “Fell in Love at 22” – Starflyer 59 (1998)

The Fashion Focus is one of the greatest purchases I ever made from the discount bin, and that didn’t happen until around 2007. Somehow I made it through the 90’s without ever really diving into Starflyer, despite being relatively deep into christian culture. Here’s one of my favorites of the many beautiful, dreamy-sounding songs Jason Martin is responsible for.

 

37. “A Man You Would Write About” – 4Him (1991)

It was probably my upbringing on southern gospel that made the four-part harmony sect of CCM sound appealing to me when I was first beginning to develop my own music tastes. This song most-likely came out before I even knew there was such a thing as christian music that wasn’t southern gospel or found in the hymnal. It is, however, one of my favorites to listen to when I need a jolt of cheesy, outdated music that I can sing along to in bass or baritone. Yes, these are actual desires I have. Plus, I find the subject of the song to be rather unique.

 

36. “When I’m Thinking About You – The Sundays (1997)

I referred to Harriet Wheeler as my favorite female vocalist in a post a couple of years ago. My wife, who has a beautiful singing voice, was not ecstatic to read those words. So…My second favorite female vocalist, Harriet Wheeler, delivers a fantastic performance on this pretty ballad from Static & Silence. 

 

35. “Don’t Go Away” – Oasis (1997)

It’s ok if you did a double-take to make sure that didn’t say “Wonderwall”, “Champagne Supernova”, “Live Forever”, or “Don’t Look Back in Anger”. I get it. Be Here Now was the album where everyone started to jump off the Oasis train, and for good reason. This was the only song on the album worth having.

 

34. “Somewhere North” – Caedmon’s Call (1999)

I’m pretty surprised that only one Caedmon’s Call track made this list. This song is from 40 Acres, which isn’t even my favorite of their albums (that would be their self-titled album). Derek Webb delivers a fantastic lyrical and vocal performance on this one, though. It’s the only Caedmon’s Call song that I find myself coming back to on a regular basis, and I have been for 16 years.

 

33. “Reject” – Living Sacrifice (1997)

You’ve made it this far into the list without something to bang your head to. I sincerely apologize. Please accept my apology by listening to one of the greatest metal songs, from one of the greatest metal albums (Reborn), by one of the greatest metal bands.

 

32. “Advent of a Miracle” – Strongarm (1997)

Most of you probably won’t understand my love for this song from the album of the same name. That’s fine. The most simple way I know to describe it to you is to say that this is the sound of intense passion. When the focus of that passion is on The Lord, it makes these kinds of songs sound even better to me.

 

31. “Come Undone” – Duran Duran (1993)

From Duran Duran [The Wedding Album], this song may be better than anything they recorded in the height of their popularity (The 80’s, duh.), aside from the ridiculously great Rio closer, “The Chauffeur”. Here, they channel the darker pop sound that makes “Hungry Like the Wolf” sound like Kidz Bop.

My Favorite Songs of the 90’s Part 4 (70-61)

70. “I’ll Give” – Smalltown Poets (1997)

From the ridiculously solid self-titled debut. It’s possible that if this list had 200 songs on it, that most of the rest of this album would make it. Dare I say that the CCM version of the Gin Blossoms may have actually been the better band.

69. “Just Try” – Starflyer 59 (1999)

I was pretty late to the Starflyer 59 party. I bought the album that features this song (Everybody Makes Mistakes) around 2008 in the discount bin at a used bookstore. I can now say that I’m a full-fledged Starflyer fan, and I own all of the albums. Better late than never.

68. “My Deliverer” – Ragamuffin Band (1998)

One of the last songs written by the late Rich Mullins. This version of the song and the demo recorded by Rich are on his final album, The Jesus Record.

67. “Angel of Mine” – Monica (1998)

From The Boy Is Mine. Yep, it’s another top-notch Monica tune. This one takes me back to my roller skating days.

66. “Goodbye” – Plankeye (1999)

Plankeye never really became a band that I would consider myself a “fan” of, but I sure do love this song. I used to be an annual buyer of the contemporary christian compilation series called Wow. This song isn’t the kind of tune they would typically put on the Wow albums, but thankfully they included it on the Wow 2000 music videos compilation, which I watched religiously. This comes from the Plankeye album Relocation.

65.  “Nothing Compares 2 U” – Sinead O’connor (1990)

I Do Not Want What I Haven’t Got is a decent enough album, but this song completely overshadows everything else on it. This heartbreaker was written by Prince, and he later recorded it himself, but even he couldn’t master this song the way Sinead did.

64. “Kissin’ You” – Total (1996)

The CD single I had of this song might has well have been stuck in my discman in 1996. The soothing guitar mixed with chill R&B was a combination that won me over back then and still does now. This comes from Total’s self-titled debut album.

63. “I Know Your Name” – Michael W. Smith (1998)

Oh, look, it’s the third song from Live the Life to make this list (so far). While not my VERY favorite album of the 90’s (that would be Much Afraid by Jars of Clay), this album is not lacking in songs that still sound great to me to this day. It sounds like something that would have been recorded either 12 year before or 12 years after it actually was. This 80’s atmospheric sound was all but dead when MWS released this song in 1998.

62. “Anybody Out There?” – Burlap to Cashmere” (1998)

From the album with the same name. This song starts out slow and pretty, but by the time the song ends I’m wondering how the guitarists arm didn’t go flying off.

61. “Your Faithfulness” – Chasing Furies (1999)

My favorite song Chasing Furies ever released wasn’t on their only album (1999’s With Abandon). This slow-burner was featured on a compilation called Listen Louder. This is one of those songs that hit me at the right time, and now everytime I listen to it, I’m back in that moment.